Jenna Davis 8-22-11 ~ A Mother’s Loss

Jenna Davis 8-22-11 ~  A Mother’s Loss

Details and impressions- Young woman; shy, late 20’s-earl 30’s, dark hair pulled back in a ponytail. Wearing pink t shirt and jeans. Her build is slightly heavier than average. She did not sit in the chair at the table but stood behind me off to the side. She was reluctant to speak also. Date of death 2008 (I think).

“Can you help me? I can’t find my baby, can you help me find my baby?” 

Do you realize that you have died Jenna? “Yes, I figured that out but I am worried I think my baby died and I can’t find him, please will you help me?”  (Her voice is frantic, as a mother I recognize that fear that paralyzes you when you can’t find your child.) Do you know how you died? Do you realize what happened? She shakes her head noting her confusion. (At this point I have a very good psychic impression of her death).

You were in a car accident, the car was almost completely destroyed. You were pulled out and rushed to the hospital. “My baby was in there, my baby was in the car!” Miraculously your baby survived the accident and only had a few scraped and bruises. A bystander pulled him free right away. An ambulance rushed him to the hospital to be checked over before the freed you from the wreckage. The baby was treated and then released to child services. Meanwhile doctors tried to save you at the hospital. Do you remember? “I remember being outside of my body but I was still attached to it. I couldn’t leave but I couldn’t respond. I kept trying to tell people I needed to find my son. I even tried returning to my body but I was just stuck there. Sometimes I would be pulled into it all at once and then the next thing I remember I was out again.  Then I broke free, I could see them working on me, there was so much blood. I didn’t care I had to find him. I went all over the hospital but I couldn’t find him. Then I went home but no one was there.”

Jenna did you have any family? “No I was a single parent, I had no one, no family and no father my child. I never even told him I was pregnant. I was alone, it was just the two of us.” Okay when you died there was no one to care for your son so he was taken into custody by child protective services. The placed him in a temporary home and he was adopted very quickly. Unfortunately he was not brought to your funeral service so he never had any more contact with you. “After a long time of searching I became confused and despondent, I just shuffled through I don’t remember what I really did or thought. Just this since of fear & the nagging feeling of loss. Then I would remember what I was looking for, my baby!”

“Are you sure he isn’t dead?”

 I am sure he isn’t dead. If he would have died he would have shared a funeral with you. Did you attend your service? “ Yes, it was just a priest and someone  I didn’t know at the graveside. The said a  few prayers and that was it.”  If he was dead he would have been there.

What’s your son’s name?  His name is Buddy, can you help me find him, please?”

Yes and no. I cannot help you physically locate him. He has gone through the system and has been adopted. It is my personal experience that finding any information through child services is near impossible. However I am going to explain to you how you can find him yourself. Here is my advice to locate Buddy and help yourself also.

1. You need to reassess your death & what happened without panicking. This will help you remember things you have forgotten or blocked out.

2. Think of Buddy, imagine him; see this face, hear his life, remember his scent. Think of your memories of him. If you are clear this will bring you to wear he is now. If it doesn’t work at first keep practicing, it will. You don’t have a body to hold you back anymore, travel is much more simple now.

3. Make sure your son is okay, observe him, check out his new family and make sure they are loving and kind. Make sure he is happy. Remember years have passed he will have grown. “Will he be able to see me?”  Probably not, is hard to say though. Children are very sensitive to the spirit world & a connection between mother & child is a strong one. Remember though sometimes when in the presence of a spirit a person especially a child may become frightened. If this happens back off a bit and approach later. As you approach think of loving thoughts and memories of your son.

4. Last move on, Do you have a light? Yes but it is very dim. Either concentrate on expanding it or find someone else’s light. Funeral homes are a great place to find recently dead people with very strong lights. Almost everyone attends their own funeral so chances are good you will find one there. Doesn’t matter who the light is attached to. They all go the same place & when you look in there, there will be people waiting for you. “No one is waiting for me. I have no one.”  I know you think that but I promise THERE ARE PEOPLE WAITING FOR YOU, and more than you can imagine. You don’t have to be alone anymore. And when you go into the light you can come back and visit your son without frightening him. Also you can choose to come back as a guide or like a guardian angel for him. The light is always the way to go!

With that she just said a simple thanks and faded away. I know it was a lot to digest and she would be busy for a while…