Mary ~ My first session and reason for starting the Spirit Talk Project 8-16-11

Mary ~ My first session and reason for starting the Spirit Talk Project 8-16-11

My relationship with Mary is different from the others in the Sprit talk sessions. She has been appearing to me for as long as I have lived in my current home (about 8 years). Despite sensing and seeing Mary she has never tried to facilitate communication with me nor I with her. Maybe I just knew she wasn’t ready to speak to me or maybe it just hadn’t occurred to me. Either way we had seen a lot of each other and I had picked up a lot psychicly from her when she was around. She came to me on the night of 8-15-11 & I realized she had tried to approach me several times recently but I had not been receptive. You see I designate bedtime as off limits to spirits, even though it is the easiest time to reach me. What happen is I have spirits keeping me up all night or disturbing my sleep so that I am tired the next day.  It occurred to me this night when Mary came through that I leave very little time for spirits to get through to me when its not work related. As a medium I am open during sessions when people are trying to contact loved ones and I as a paranormal investigator I am open to spirits when I am on a case. But at home during the day to day I am hardly ever open for those in spirit who are trying to get through to me for their own reasons. So I decided that night while I was talking to Mary that everyday when I get up Mon.-Thurs. I would make coffee sit at the table and be open for an hour to who ever might want to come through. I made rules for the spirit to follow and designated a notebook to record their sessions in. I decided to call it Project Spirit Talk & it would start this night with Mary.

   Every time I saw Mary she has been soaking wet & I can tell she is cold & shivering. She is very young between 13-17, she is very thin & frail. Her skin is very fair and her eyes are dark and sunken in. She has very long dark hair that is parted in the middle & falls in her face. Even though she presents in this way I can see right away this is not how she was in life. She was incredibly beautiful with fine delicate features & would have no doubt grown into a stunningly beautiful woman. She looks this way because she identifies with her body which is in a cold, dark, wet place. She spends so much time down there with her body she projects these feelings on herself. I can’t help but feel her body is buried on or near my property. I don’t think it is in a graveyard but has been hidden in water or a very wet place. I picked up on an M for her name which later evolved into Mary. I believe her to have been called by two names (like the name Mary Anne for example) Mary Ellen? Mary Jane? I am unsure.

Mary really reached out this time she expressed that she was ready to talk and be heard. That she couldn’t remember who she was or how she died but she knows something bad happened to her. She wants to remember who she was & what happened. So this is my goal for her. I want to try to help her remember, make peace and move on. I would love to find her body and put it to rest but I don’t know if that’s a practical expectation. I have started doing as much research as I can on her. I believe her to be from the early to mid 1800’s and from my immediate area. Research has shown me that before this was Whigham GA the area I live in around Tired Creek was settled by William Hawthorne (The blazer of The Hawthorne Trail Wagon Trail) and his family. I am hoping to find a lead that brings be back to her. I do believe that there is at least one photograph of her in existence and that I will find an article or some mention of her disappearance. Both I and another medium have picked up some similar things about Mary. She was part of a large family mostly boys.  I believe there was some sort of incest involving the father or an older man. I feel like she died violently and either her body was hidden or something about the crime was hidden. I also feel like there were 2 younger male involved either directly with the crime or the cover up.

Questions from Mary

1. Why can’t I remember who I was or how I died?

Sometimes when a death happens suddenly and its traumatic a person blocks it out because its too much and too confusing. After an intense trauma at the time of death the person can go into a state of shock in which they are going through some motions but are unaware of their death and what is going on around them. In this state they either relive moments in their past or block out everything. Also the longer you are dead & don’t cross over the more your memories fade.

2. Will you help me find my body, find out who I am and what happened to me?

Yes I will try to help you anyway I can. I am going to see what I can pick up on psychicly. I am going to do some historical research & we are also going to try to jog your memory. I won’t promise we will find your body but I will try and we will find out more about you and what happened to you.

I want to talk to you now about moving on. Really there is no need to stay her and try to sort this out. Whatever happened to you in the past is over. There is no reason to stay with your body. Your free now,  you can go anywhere and see and do what you like. Better yet you can go into the light and move on. There are people on the other side waiting for you. Everything is so much better once you go into the light. Do you have a light with you?” No I haven’t seen the light in a really long time. Its hard to remember it. Its so dark where I am”. I could make the light for you if your ready. “No I know I am not ready, I’m just so confused. I want to know who I am. I use to know. Why am I here. I need to know.” Okay I am going to help you through this. I promise its going to be okay.

~I have to phenomenal artist working on something that I believe will be instrumental in helping Mary cross over when the time is right. I am currently doing historical research on the area. Mary’s case is defiantly a work in progress.